Women can be Bitches

So I know that I have spoken about Tuesday more than once. I still just do not get people who are miserable and cannot just take the fucking mask off and own who they are in their core. The golf experience for me was supposed to be a shared experience with Danny.

You do no change your view on a sport of 20+ years overnight unless you have other intentions. If it is your rival and you realize this is a way to spend time with the man you have been pining, you absolutely do it. The woman will see through it, the man will buy into his ego.

I know as a woman you know other women’s intentions. Men on the other hand are stupid because they let ego rule more than they should. But let’s be honest the ego makes you feel good. It keeps you from seeing things or feeling things that may be uncomfortable.

I am working on releasing the anger. It does me zero good. The reality is Danny has to see the manipulation for himself. It cannot be anything I point out. I have had times where I have been oblivious to a man’s intentions. It often took another friend pointing it out to me.

I have pointed out my feelings and as it turns out the previous girlfriend did too. So what more can happen? Nothing, he needs to look at it for himself. He needs to see the subtle bullshit for himself. I have said I believe Facebook is the the devil.

Actually FB is not the devil it is the people who utilizing it for negativity that are the devils. I saw yesterday on FB 2 things that prove she is just egging me on.

  1. Posting about Oyster and wine festivals that they should plan
  2. Liking a concert idea that she would hope to be invited in November

I know that Danny would say I read into things, but I do know the truth. I also know I am going to say nothing about any of this. This is partly due to the fact I think I am slowly checking out of this nut ball hotel. As much as there were clues for Danny at my house about my level of being in, I doubt he has the level of knowledge he should.

Men always think I will stick around and that I am sooooo into them that I cannot walk away. That thought process is only the ego driving them.  I know there are 2 men right now that think that if they had the change they  would jump back in. I will tell you, that opportunity is non-existent. I am not going to repeat mistakes or give more chances.

I have been there done that got that t-shirt. The same holds for mean girls. I am on to it and I am going to bite my tongue. If he cannot figure it out he deserves to have such a leach suck all the good out of his life. You can only get so many clues.

I am having a hard time picking up my clubs today. I am still wounded. That bitch hit me with a direct hit that she knew would screw me up. I hate that she won, I will have to pretend this is like getting back on the horse. I am just not ready today.

2 thoughts on “Women can be Bitches

  1. Sorry this is happening to you. You got this! As you have stated, not your first rodeo. God has better things in store. Praying for you and wisdom going forward.

    Hugs to you Joyce!

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