Gifts exposed

Just like the earthquake reveals cracks in the earth, trust has exposed gifts to me. The gifts I have been told for years that I possessed. I always dismissed them and said they were wrong.

So once I started to listen to my intuition things changed. I believe that I have been broken open by my relationship with Danny. I also believe that my gifts are something I can no longer contain or hide.

I woke up several weeks ago and the first thing that came to my mind was that I needed to give Danny a chakra clearing. It was clear as day and it would not go away.

It took a while to get him to do it. Not because he did not want to but more of a scheduling issue. Once I did this other messages started to come through.

Now I wondered why now were the messages becoming so clear. It was like I could hear what I could not hear previously. I am now convinced that these messages were not meant for me to hear them until now. What I also believe is that my purpose is to heal and to teach others. I know and have known for a while that I am a light worker. The mission was never quiet this clear.

It was a revelation when I shared these experiences with Danny and he said he wished he had gifts like mine. The fact is he too has gifts and one of them is encouraging others to their purpose. Think about how many people discourage others and their gifts.

He was supposed to be in my life and today I asked about his wife and how they met. I know that it is refreshing and he wants to share. The thing here is I want to learn more about him and be closer to him. The story today made me love him even more, which I did not think possible.

These experiences together are bringing to fruition all of my dreams. I have a man in my life who is supportive and kind. He is everything I dreamt and manifested. The Universe does answer.

Last week, I locked myself out of the yoga studio. I visualized someone arriving who had a key. Three people arrived within 15 minutes and all within minutes of each other. I bring this up because I know it’s real and it works. The simple requests happen quickly and when they are more complex they take time.

I know I impatient but I asked for Danny 6 years ago. It was a detailed list. So just like a good recipe it takes time to create if you want it according to the desired outcome.

I would be a huge liar if I said I have been patient with the process. I was surprised today when I asked about meeting his children when his 2nd oldest was home along with the others over Thanksgiving. I should not be surprised he was open to it as I requested this happening.

Do I know it is going to play out? No but I will say it’s going to happen in a manner that is palatable for me.

May all your waves be glassy

My person

So slowly it happened. I got my person. Sure most girls my age think of Grey’s Anatomy – Christina and Meredith, “my person”. My person is now Danny. It has been a slow process and seriously I did not even see how it happened. I cannot tell you when it switched over.

All I know is we are now each other’s person. I think the more shocking part for me is that I am his person. Believe me I want to be each other’s person and I have waited a long time for this to happen.

I am just adjusting. For a long time in this 8 months he has kept me at bay. I was used to it, and then he started to drop the wall and let me in.

At some point I realize now he put the wall around us. It is comforting and safe. I think I am now just working at being. Sounds ridiculous but it’s what I am doing right now.

So in accordance with this comes the Holiday Season. I just assumed I would be on the outside looking in. Then he asked me to come to Thanksgiving Dinner. No pressure right? Just his parents, his siblings and his 4 adult children and what I am assuming the 2 girlfriends of the oldest and youngest boys.

I am just going to breathe right through it. I am releasing it all to the Universe. It’s all going to be alright.

Sitting on my board looking at the glassy waves. May all your waves be glassy.

Earthquakes start as tremors

Sometimes the earth moves while you are moving and you do not immediately notice. I think that is what has happened in my life over the past few weeks. It was all subtle. Then I looked up and the landscape had totally shifted.

Danny has changed in how he interacts with me. I have now become that confidant that I wanted to be to him. It was something that I did not see coming. It was something that when I realized it I wanted to cry and cheer at the same time. What I had felt and believed for so long had come true.

He is now coming to me and sharing his struggles and goals. This for me has been huge and that says volumes on where he is with me in his life. He is not a sharer like me. I get it. I have not shared everything I could have in the blog. I do keep somethings close to my vest.

We talk every day. He shares his day and he asks about mine. I know this sounds simplistic. Maybe it is but he was not in the habits of these acts before. It would or would not happen. I left things well enough alone. It obviously evolved on it’s own and it is just like I thought it would be in my mind.

We had lunch last week and he brought up Tuesday. It was funny, I did not cringe and I do not have any feelings for her. He shared a story about a man she dated in the past. There is no way in the world I would ever believe she did not know he was married. Danny is the one person in the world I would never tell that to because I know the reaction. So if he was my friend and I was dating a married man, the story would be sanitized.

The funny part was at the end of discussing her. He showed me the text she sent. I will say is that if someone means a lot to you and they know it, you do not repeat it and go over board. You would if you felt you were losing the persons attention, you turn into a puppy jumping up and down for attention. That is Tuesday.

She wants to golf with Danny and a friend of hers. He said WE when he responded to how he answered her. I would have loved to see her reaction. Whatever, I am over expending energy on her.

I am now focused on helping him to get to the goals he has set for himself and the goals I have for me in my life. In my life I have taken a step that will help me and as much as my ego was holding me back, I know this is right and what I need to do. So I have an appointment Thursday, it will be in full motion at that time.

My waves may have been choppy and a victory at sea, but now I see and feel the glassy ones under me. I am so happy things are turning around. I am praying the glassy waves are on the way for Danny too.

 

 

Symbolism more powerful than expected

It’s not lost on me the cleaning I have done in Danny’s house and deeper meaning.

I helped Danny this weekend watch his son’s dog. He was not supposed to work all 3 days but he did and every day was 12 hours. He was spent. He had already been spent on this job weeks ago.

I started to help on Thursday night. When I got to the house the kitchen looked like a frat house on a good day. There were dishes piled in the sink. The dishwasher was full needing to be emptied. There were clean dishes on the counter. A pan on the stove and a hot plate on the island. I started to freak out.

I am not good with clutter or mess. I am definitely someone who runs on organization and cleanliness. When Danny got home I said I would clean it the next day. He told me not to worry and he would get it. I was like ok, knowing full well I would clean it.

I did clean that and then some. This weekend was really a deep clean of his master suite, the living quarters and I cleared all the poop. In the yard (again). The main level of the house including the garage were cleaned and put back in order.

Initially, it was a dusting and washing of the floors. It grew and in the end I am still shocked all that I got done. I also organized his closet and cleaned the garage. I wiped down all the baseboards, and chair rails. I washed the windows and changed light bulbs. There was nothing left including cleaning the oven.

I was one step away from becoming my grandmother with the cleaning. The only thing that kept me from being my grandma was her love of bleach, borax soap, Brillo and Comet. I am still pleased with how clean the house was when I left last night.

As I was cleaning, I realized there was a certain symbolism on some aspects of the need for cleaning. The windows that were the dirtiest and darkest were his room and his office. I hoped that this was more than symbolic and it was. This just illuminated for me the reasons I was doing it. I was doing it to help him get his space clear and move his manifestations into a quicker reality. Clutter and dust will slow it down every time.

Every night when he came home, I was hoping he was happy about the slow transformation of his home. He was more thankful and happier than I could have ever imagined. I think it’s interesting he is so open to it. I am sure that the house has not been this clean since his wife passed and probably previous to her becoming really ill the last few months of her life.

I wondered today if when his son came home and saw the transformation, what was his response. There is no doubt the transformation was relayed or will be relayed to his siblings in a short period of time. It really does not matter to me because I did it for Danny. I wanted to help him get things moving for him. I wanted him to be at peace and have less to worry about when he is at home.

I also think there is an opening to discuss some other things. I am interested in his plan for some things being handled. I am going to start with the more benign ones to inquire. I will see where the conversation goes from there.

He thanked me more than I think I could have ever imagined. He promised to make the weekend up to me. I do not think he still understands that what I did made me happier than he could have ever imagined.

May all your waves be glassy.

 

 

The light always illuminates the dark

The light was just peeking out this weekend and this morning it was a full blown sunshine! So I know I have ranted about Tuesday. I know I am entitled. I also know she is a sad little woman. She will be a lonely woman at the rate she is going now.

I get it she was only getting the crumbs Danny was throwing her way. They were few and far between. I took the initiative to go through Danny’s Facebook from the previous year in order to ascertain other important dates, such as his other children’s birthdays. In this action I also saw Tuesday’s interaction with Danny abruptly ended when I came along.

I could have probably guessed this on my own. I assumed it and now I know it to be true. This week she pushed her luck a little too far and I am containing my smugness. It is difficult but the fact is Danny will never admit I was right, and I am absolutely okay with this.

So this is the history of her posts on Danny’s FB page over the last 60 days. It is still amazing to me. Aug 26 the post that Danny and her were in NC (GREAT day on the golf course! Danny is an excellent coach!) and it looked as if they were a couple. Sept 1 (It’s officially an “R” month!! Let’s get a group and enjoy wine and oysters all over the state!!) she posted they need to hit the Oyster and Wine Festival circuit (this is a repeat of a March post right before he met me). September 26 Learning to golf with the great with tag that implied they were again in NC together and a repeat picture. Finally Oct 2 a FB Friendship Anniversary – Aww Happy Friendship Anniversary to my dear friend Danny You are the best!.

So I want to set something up here before I give you the light of the door opening. He had only posted 3 other events in that time. Each one involved his children. I know her spamming his page finally proved my statements true. How you ask? He deleted the post. He never liked it and it was deleted.

I know he is a smart man. I also know he is in love with me and loves me. He is a protective man and now I am in the circle. She did not anticipate happening and has exploited their relationship. I had thought she would push it, and it happened. I also know her personality enough to be confident she will accuse me of making him delete it.  It will be this or something else derogatory and she will be iced out for good.

I do not feel sorry for her. She is a grown ass woman. If he wanted you, he would have had you. I also think her pining for him is her loss. She is wasting life on something that will never materialize. She is reaping what she sowed. I know she was negative and shit stirring in my relationship. Karma is only a bitch if you are one.  – ‘Nuff Said.

May all your waves be glassy

New things and new people

So as far as the birthday went, I could not have been more blessed. I was really surprised by a lot of things. I was touched and moved by the people who reached out and what they said to me. It warmed my heart and it is still warm. Danny had to work this weekend.

Oddly enough I thought for as long as we have known each other we would not share this weekend. He told me early on he could not celebrate my birthday weekend because of plans with his children. Well low and behold those plans changed. So we did spend time together. I helped him out with his dogs and we went from there.

I have to note that we are planning to go away for a weekend in October to celebrate without all the conflicts in our calendar. That said initially I had my pout moment that I did not get a card or a gift. He did come home after working 12 hours on a Saturday to cook for me, so I was just being an only child brat. Sunday I did not think I would see him.

Sunday he texted to see if I wanted to play 18 holes. Of course I said yes. I already told him I would take care of the dogs at 11. He then told me I could just wait for him if I liked. I said no. The reason being his son was coming home at 2ish and he should have been home by then but if he was late and/or his son early I was not cool with it. He respected it.

I was still a little concerned so I put on my makeup. I do not wear makeup on the golf course typically but I was not going to be caught off guard. I drove to pick Danny up at his house. I backed into the driveway so he could put his clubs in the car. I texted that I was there. He came out of the house and was waving me in. I was so confused.

He said come on in to the house and meet my oldest son. I had nothing, I was speechless. Danny introduced us and it was started. The air is being let out of the balloon. I am in, this was his way of showing me his love and letting his children know I am important. I made some small talk and then we went to golf.

On the 15th hole his phone died, I left the battery pack in the car. So when we unloaded the cart I plugged his phone in. He must have gotten a charge because it rang shortly afterward on our way home. It was his daughter. I know this meeting made it through the other 3 kids’ phones. He said he would call her back.

That was the best birthday gift ever.

May all your waves be glassy.

Sporty Girl Finally Gets Sporty Guy

So yesterday was an awesome day. It was girl time in the morning and then it was Danny time in the afternoon and evening. The image today is a happy me on the course. Yesterday turned out to be that day as well.

When Danny called me I was out with the girls. I had some other plans but I changed them when he asked for me to golf with him on the local course he golfs. I started to panic. I had not been to the range or golfed in over a month. I also had put my clubs on time out and moved them to the office as I was pissed about the North Carolina thing.

I left that in the past and was like this is going to be fine. When you change your mindset it all changes. It was all good. I did not keep score for me but the thing was that I started to hit better and Danny was a great coach. He learned more about me too.

He is always saying things that make me reflect and see why I do things or say things. It is actually refreshing. I have learned that I am still healing from past damaging relationships. I am working on changing my responses and I am content with my progress. He also learned more about me.

I know he just assumed I was in a house with sports. I was not in any such home. My home was sport-less. I wanted to join sports but at the time my parents said no because it required them to volunteer or maybe it was $ I am unclear. I do remember my anxiety when it came time to play softball. I hated it. I had my cousin Tom help me with my batting.

The anxiety was always there as a girl with playing sports. So what emerged was me as a super fan. I learned the sports on my own and I asked questions. I always dated either jocks or musicians. So those are the areas I learned more about in my free time.

After golf one of the more refreshing moments for me in a long time happened. We went home to watch the Clemson v Louisville game. He is just as intense if not more than I am when I am watching my teams. He is loud and cheers as if he was in the stands, just like me. Then I realized another reason I love him.

He takes time out to discuss strategy and plays. It is refreshing and he is patient. We discuss things and it makes me feel good. I also think he likes the interactions with me because it solidifies things we share together.

The golf as I evolve with my game I think it will continue to bring us closer. The love of sports will also bring us closer. I manifested this and I am so thankful. I have taken the time to be sure I know what I want in my life. I want this part of my life to continue to grow.

Believe me there are some areas that I know need to grow to catch up. I am going to be patient and wait. I cannot rush things. I also know that there are people craving a relationship that has aspects they want with serious opportunity to grow and they do not have that in their life.

So I am going to remain in gratitude and be clear how I want my life to feel as it continues to manifest.

May all your waves be glassy.